I also feel like I have had a much better attitude this past couple of weeks because of how good I feel.  It’s interesting how much mood can be effected by how we feel physically.  My kids have been happier too because I have been happier.  I need to make sure to keep up this good feeling even if I start to feel worse throughout the next several weeks of treatment.

I just am so grateful to be able to do normal things like exercise, play with my kids, run errands, go out with Branden, see friends, clean the house, and have the energy to do it all.  I even went on a big water slide at 7 Peaks Water Park this week when Branden had a work party there.  It was the most normal “healthy person” kind of activity that I have done all summer long!!  Nothing is healing right now (like from surgery), and I am not too nauseous or weak or dizzy to go on a crazy ride.  It was so fun!!

So, for chemo today, despite the fact that I am feeling so well, I was not allowed to do the Taxol, because my white blood cell count was too low again.  I did get the Herceptin, but that was it.  It made chemo shorter, and I won’t have to worry about feeling bad this week because Taxol is the one with the side effects, not Herceptin.  I was disappointed that I could not do my full treatment, because I want to make sure we are fighting this cancer as aggressively as possible.  But then again, it’s nice to know that I will not get the side effects from the Taxol this week.

My white blood cell count is not dangerously low.  My doctor is just worried because of how much it dropped, and because of how sick I got before when my white blood cell count basically went to 0.  I went from 14 last week (which was slightly high due to the steriods I had taken), to only 3 this week.  Dr. “B” just wants to see my numbers go up some more by next week.

I hope that it is up next week, because I don’t want to miss another treatment.  It is not a big deal that I missed one, since we will be doing so many, but I want to know that I am fighting this thing.  If I’m going to be in chemo, I want to just do it aggressively and know that I did my best when I am done.

I was surprised that my wbc count was low since I feel so well, but my wbc count has been all over the place the last several weeks, so I guess I shouldn’t have been too surprised.  I guess it is good to be cautious though, because I certainly don’t want to go back to the hospital again.  Overall, I feel great, and I will just hope and pray that my white blood cell count increases this week.