Written Apr 4, 2012 5:06pm
One year ago today my life changed. I was diagnosed with breast cancer. 3 weeks later I was told that I had very little chance of surviving five years, and that my cancer was “incurable”.
Since that time I have had 4 surgeries, 16 rounds of chemo, and 38 radiation treatments. I have been hospitalized for a total of about a month during this past year. I became bald, had horrible mouth sores and infections in my mouth and throat, was unable to eat for about 8 weeks straight, dropped 20 pounds and gained it back, vomited a few times, was unable to get out of bed several times, was not allowed to touch my children for a few weeks, experienced fatigue and nausea, lost feeling in my fingers and toes, and have taken an obscene amount of drugs. I can’t even count how many times I have had blood drawn, and I have had several tests on my heart and PET scans to check for cancer.
After all of this, I feel healthy and have had one doctor tell me that I may even be “cured”. If nothing else, it appears I am in some type of a remission. I am so grateful to my Heavenly Father for allowing me to live and raise my children and be with Branden.
During this past year I have often been sad, scared, or just worried about my life and about my family. I have tested my beliefs in my desire to feel peace. I know that my prayers have been heard. I have felt comforted many times and I feel peace. I can tell you that I was not alone. I just want my friends and family to all know that you are never alone in this life. I hope to live a long mortal life, but I am comforted to know that death is like a door to another room of existence.
I attached a powerful talk by a prophet of God, (President Thomas S. Monson) that means a lot to me. No matter what you believe, I am praying that many of you will watch it. It talks about our purpose in life, and what happens after our mortal death. It is about 19 minutes long. Please watch it with an open mind. I absolutely believe it.
Anything that is good, true, and brings joy and peace has to be from God. He is the source of all good, and I know He loves you and me. I love you all and thank you for your love and prayers for me and my family this past year.